Apparently, I really don’t know what do I really want or what should I do. I don’t know. Have you guys any have struggles like this?
Well, it’s hard. I’ve been thinking a lot. On what do I want to do or what are the things should I do but I really don’t know. These past few days, as I’ve surf through net, seeing people outside, watching TV and more, I kept thinking, what I really wanted to be or is there something I should do to satisfy myself? There’s something lacking, I know. I can feel it, but I don’t know where and what should I start.
My life has been through a lot ever since I started college. I was challenged physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually and financially. It’s a hard battle and it’s still on going. There are lots of things I wanted to do but I ended up not doing anything. You get this moment “I will do this later” and when that moment come I don’t do anything. I’m like being frozen or something. It will just came that I don’t feel like doing it and then I’ll keep thinking again if there’s something more that I should do OR there are moments that I am so enthusiast to do something but I can’t do it because something’s blocking you or stopping you to do it. Then I ended up really doing nothing.